Ramblings

It sucks when you realize someone that you thought cared, really doesn't give a shit. It sucks even more to realize that you can't change that person or your relationship with them. You're just stuck in a messed up situation. I feel bad for people. 

Unrelated, but it also sucks when kids will not go to sleep. J is asleep. Little A has finally  been quiet for a few minutes, but I can still hear big A in her room... I just want to finish the dishes, read a chapter in my book, and go to bed. 

Read this blog post this morning and it made me tear up a little.  Some days I don't feel like I'm doing enough. But maybe tomorrow I will get there. 

If you're a mama, you should go read this. 

http://lisajobaker.com/2014/01/a-love-letter-to-all-the-tired-mamas-everywhere/

Little A says

Mama.  Maybe my life is just a dream. (Pause) and when I die I'll wake up. 

Big A: it would be horrible if I got sick right before Christmas. 

Little A. It would be horrible if I broke my leg right before Christmas. Then I couldn't  get to my presents. You'd have to get them for me. That would be a bad bad BAD Christmas. 

Little A.

Little A: It's hard for a queen to get boys. 

Me: huh?

Little A: it's hard to have princes. You know the babies? They usually have princesses. Have you seen on Disney? It's lots of princesses.   

Big A says

If I stop throwing up, we can still go to the snow today right? 

Um. Probably not kid. 

Little A says:

"Hey mom. If every pork chop was perfect, we wouldn't have hot dogs. I learned that on a show."  

Love that kid. 

Little A says...

Mom it's like I can hear everything. I can hear everything in the world and it's all too loud. 

It's nablopomo again

Will I blog every day? Doubtful. Will I try? Sure why not. I'll start with being thankful. Maybe I can post one every day. It's day 1 and I'm thankful for my family. :-)

Howling at the moon.

I can't go to bed yet! I haven't had enough time to practice my howling.

Mooooom...

Little A was in the tub playing with his new pirate ship. 

"Mom. Mooom.  I need you now Mom."

" What do you need?"

" I really need my earplugs. Ya know the ones from swimming lessons so my ears don't get wet and hurt?"

"Why? Are your ears hurting?"

"No. My earplugs are

 very bright and 

orange. They'd make great buoys. "

at least he's creative...

Meal time.

"Dad, I'm hungry. Really hungry  I want a meal. "

"How about some carrots?"

"That's not a meal."

"Yogurt?"

"Dad!  That's not a meal. How about ice cream? I think that's a meal."

Kids say...

My children are currently playing in the back yard. Little A is a wild boy that big A found in the forest. She's teaching him about life. He's currently living in the peach tree. He just discovered the patio table and I overheard this conversation. 

"Ooh this is a table." 

"You don't know what a table is. Remember?"

"Oh. Right.  What is this thing?"

"A table."

 "Oooh a table!"

Random little A

"Hes at work too much. We're like a flock of birds and he keeps getting carried off by the farmer."

"And Clarissa [the cat] is a chicken."

Okay kid. Whatever you say. 

Just another day...

Him: just give me 2 pills out of that bottle.

Her: are you sure? These expired 7 years ago

Him: (looks at her likes she's stupid) 

Her: (gives him the pills) 7 years!  Really?

30 minutes later...

Him: are you sure you gave me the right pills? They're not working

Her: (pounds forhead against something hard...) you do realize the expiration date is there for a reason right?

Him: should i take another one?

Workouts!

Today I did another BeFit workout from their YouTube channel. It still kicked my butt. I lasted a little longer with the planks than I did the last time I did them. I can really feel it in my stomach muscles.

Here's my obligatory sweaty post workout picture.

Workout

My workout today was BeFit Go cardio conditioning and Abs 30 minute circuit training video. (It's free on YouTube!) and it kicked my butt. I'd like to get better at posting my workouts on here. We'll see. My abs are pretty much nonexistent. Doing 1 sit-up is painful. So this was a good workout for me. Hopefully next time I'll be a little better at it.

Exercise

7-8 cardio 2.5 hours in the pool swam, walked laps, treaded water

Losing weight

So for years I was trying to lose weight. Finally I was successful. I've lost 160 pounds. Life is good. But, I'm still not quite where I want to be. I want to lose another 15-20 pounds maybe? I don't want to be a whiner and say its not good enough, but, well I'm just not quite there. I'm at the point now where I have to work my booty off to continue losing. And summertime is throwing off my routine. They closed the gym by my house, Jeff doesn't get home from work until late, I refuse to pay $4 per kid every time I work out, and it supposed to be 102 degrees tomorrow. So I'm committing to doing some new exercising. 3 days a week ill do cardio above and beyond what I do now. 4 days a week I'll do gorilla challenge. What are you doing this summer to be healthier?.

Mom I'm bored!

So have you heard I'm bored 57 times so far this summer? I've been trying to keep the kids busy, without spending a fortune. What can I say, I'm cheap. We've done a ton of outings with our local Playgroup. The kids had an awesome time touring the fire station last week. We've gone to the pool, played with friends, gone to parks and visited the beach. Unfortunately now that summer is really upon us (it was 106 over the weekend) we'll be looking go even more fun cheap ways to stay cool. Here's one we tried the other day. We got all the empty Tupperware containers we could find. The more shapes, the better it will be. Then we filled them with water and next we put them in the freezer. And then we forgot about them. Okay really little A did not forget about them! He asked every 10 minutes if they were ready. Eventually they were frozen so after dinner we dumped them out and they played with them. The plan was to build a castle. They spent about 2 minutes doing that, then they moved onto figuring out what the ice would do. They put each piece of ice on its own brick on the patio so they could see which ones would melt fastest. They also had to walk on the ice and see how it felt on their feet. Next they covered the ice with blankets and sat on it. They definitely didn't do what I expected but they sure had fun. And it kept them entertained for at least an hour.